Damn bored!!

What am I going to do tonight? I supposed to be on my friend’s engagement night but all of my friends forgot to pick me up (WTF!!). I don’t mind about it because it is just an engagement but I’ve missed several of my friends’ weddings because they forgot about me and never even called me. Well what can I say, I get used to it but bored is my main problem. What am I going to do right now?

Then I called this girl that I admire but she rejected me so many times (what a loser I am) and she said that she’s watching some concert that I don’t care about with her friends and her ex-boyfriend. What? Her ex-boyfriend? I still remember that everytime her ex-boyfriend kept on calling like he can’t even accept their break up, she always called me and I’m like a psychiatrist who listens to her problems and all that stuff. At the end of it, she told me that I’m too nice for her and her feelings for me is not there yet. Well what do you want me to be? A shrink? A S.O.B. who just being used when you’re needed to (like I always being used to) ?

This is when hard rock songs or bone crunching death metal songs or emo songs or something like that ease up my ear. Damn I hate being myself and I hate being me. I hate my life and everything around me. It’s not that I’m not being grateful for being alive and able to blog right now but it’s just makes me sick. I just hate my life. Seriously.

P/S: I’m downloading the new movie Surf’s Up and can’t wait for it to finish hehe